Imam dva bloga. Tega tu, kjer sem zastopana z imenom in priimkom in drugega, kjer pišem anonimno. Kdaj tehtam, katere teme bi šle kam. Ker se ne bi hotela zameriti kup ljudem.
Potem pa sem pomislila na geje. In na njihov coming out. Da so verjetno “in the closet” dokler so lahko. Ko je ta “omara” pretesna, morajo ven. Pa čeprav tvegajo posledice.
Tudi jaz moram narediti isto. Če nisem iskrena do sebe in do drugih, če se moram konstantno samocenzurirati-potem vse skupaj nima smisla. Bom že prenesla. Drugi pa bodo tudi morali prenesti. Sem kar sem.
Once you start to speak,
people will yell at you.
They will interrupt you,
put you down,
suggest it’s personal and
the world won’t end.
And the speaking will get easier and easier.
And you will find you have fallen in love with your own vision, which you may never have realized you had.
And you will lose friends and lovers and realize you won’t even miss them. And new ones will find you and cherish you.
And you will still flirt and paint your nails, dress up and party.
And at last, you’ll know with surpassing certainty that one thing is more frightening than speaking your truth.
And that is not speaking.
— Audre Lorde